A Student Again - Kicked Out of the Comfort Zone

Good teachers in any field have one thing in common: they don't let you rest for long. I've been continually rediscovering this since my first class nearly six months ago.

When I signed up I already felt like a beginner even though I've been playing and singing something, with one group or another, since high school. However, I'd gotten into a rut. During my more truthful moments I realized I was bored. That's why I deliberately chose an instructor who works outside of "my" genre. I'm used to what could be loosely called classical; she does jazz.

When I signed up, I knew I wanted to learn a few new skills such as working by ear (as opposed to reading music) and improvising harmony lines on the spot. I suspected it would take much work on my part, and I was right. In addition to these musicianship skills, however, my instructor has also been gradually prodding me towards solo work, whether by myself or against a background of other instruments.

This, for me, has been the most challenging aspect of being a student again - having to get out - wa-a-ay out - in the spotlight. Whether playing in an ensemble or singing in a choir, the point is to blend in, not stand out. In addition, for most of my musical life I've been living in what I call the Alto Ghetto, where much of the material is underwhelming, such as 3-note drone lines for wind instruments or do-wop choruses designed to set off showy Soprano solos. The supporting cast is necessary but being there on a long term basis can make you either complacent or catatonic.

For now I'm just getting used to the idea. Eventually I'll have to make the leap. I expect it will be much like diving into a mountain lake: thinking about it is more excruciating than actually doing it, and the water turns out to be just fine.

This is perhaps the greatest value in studying under a good teacher. Being kicked out of the comfort zone is momentarily disorienting. There may be a few embarrassing moments at first. But it's the only way to arrive at the next level.